Badly shaken...


My life has always been something that most people would refer to as "a bed of roses." Sure, I've had my share of problems and struggles, but nothing that I couldn't really handle or deal with. I've pretty much grown up not really wanting or missing out on anything as my folks have always done their best to give us everything we want and need. My family has had its share of ups and downs, but we've always made it... and with flying colors, if I may say so. Yes, life has been really good.

While I am very thankful for that, I can't help but wonder how things would've been if my life weren't as rosy as it were. Would I be a much stronger person? Would I be more courageous and braver? Would I be more "together" in facing what life has just thrown so unexpectedly at me? Would I be less scared right now? Less confused? Less depressed? Would I be able to handle things in a different way? Or is there really any other way that I could actually deal with this? I'm out of answers at the moment!

Life throws things at you so unexpectedly that you are hit straight in the face and you just fall without you even knowing what just happened. Life is cruelly funny like that at times. Sometimes, it plays a really bad joke on you.

Life, for me, has practically been perfect until a few weeks ago. My family found out about something that really shook each member. I would like to divulge this, but I was advised not to do so, yet, so as to protect some people for different reasons. Suffice it to say, my family is dealing with a hugely grave problem. This has changed each of us and blew that bubble that I thought was protecting my family from all these problems and cruelty in life. I, for one, am on the verge of losing hope.

But then again, because life has always been good for me (us), I am hopeful. That's one thing that's good about having the kind of sheltered life I have, one always sticks to the positive. One is always hopeful for the best. After all, life is good. Isn't it?


Comments

cheryll said…
ei nak, keep the faith. as i've said sa text, i'll be praying. *hug*

- mami
5/07/2009 08:31:00 AM
Unknown said…
oli, so Allah na malai limo. Am praying for uncle Dan also. Di sya nawawala sa mga prayers ko.

Auntie A
5/08/2009 02:05:00 PM
Anonymous said…
Hold on, Ate D! You'll pull through. God works in ways we don't know.
5/10/2009 11:04:00 AM
BabyPink said…
thanks, mami, auntie a., and jah! :)
5/10/2009 02:46:00 PM
Anonymous said…
Hi Babypink. Hope everything will be ok with u and family. Godspeed!
5/13/2009 02:40:00 PM
CrescentFire said…
Keep strong, sis! :D
5/24/2009 12:58:00 AM
BabyPink said…
thanks everyone, really.:)
5/27/2009 05:35:00 PM
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