27 December 2007
Aaah, it feels good to have finally rested and relaxed for some days! Our Christmas break started on the 21st and, since then, I have been staying home (going out only when I have to run errands) just chilling out. It's great! I don't even remember when was the last time I had as many days to rest and relax as I've had (still have) this break. No exaggeration there. Ever since I started working, I haven't enjoyed any break or vacation as when we have breaks, that's actually when we are given extra load of work to do since we don't have our classes to worry about. Also, when the department doesn't have us working our butts off, the orgs I'm in come into the picture. I end up having to work more on breaks or vacations than when I have classes. So, you can just imagine how much I am enjoying and savoring every single minute of my Christmas break!
Half the time, I am glued to the computer exploring the Internet wwworld! When my computer finally got connected to Internet, I was so excited and I thought: "Weeee! Now, I can blog everyday if I want to!" But, as it turned out, I haven't been blogging or blog-hopping that much (or the way I imagined myself to do). There are two reasons for this. Shelfari and Facebook! In Shelfari, one can make his own bookshelf. I've been meaning to do an inventory of my books for months now, and with the help of Shelfari, I was able to do that. And not just that, I also got to make my wish list (which keeps getting longer and longer by the day). Another thing is I get to read other readers' opinions of books that I've read and I can join reading or discussion groups.
Now, Facebook, on the other hand, is a whole world on its own! A number of friends were actually telling me about it since the first half of this year, but, having no Internet connection at home, I wasn't really interested. Besides, there's Friendster anyway. Why do I need another "networking" account? And, finally, a few weeks ago, I was able to create my Facebook account. At first, I didn't really give it much attention. And then, I read about it in Ping's and Toni's blogs. And the rest, as the cliche goes, is history! Now, I am a Facebook addict! Hehehe:)
One of my Facebook friends asked about our New Year's Resolutions. I am not one to make a New Year's Resolutions List because I am more of a Tomorrow's Resolutions List type of person. Meaning, I believe that one can start to change something about oneself any given day. But, anyway, I decided to answer the question. The first two things that popped in my mind were: read more and write more! So, that's what I said my answer was. 2007 has actually been the year in which I read the least number of books (well, not counting the books I needed to read for my lessons, of course). And, that's been really frustrating for me. Much as I'd like to read, I've been really caught up in so much work that I just didn't have enough time. Same thing with writing (God, just look at my 2006 and 2007 archive)! But, that's going to change in 2008 because I am going to make time!
So, now, I am more looking forward to 2008. I have a strong feeling that it's going to be a great year! Let's all look forward to it and welcome it with happiness and hope, why don't we? :)
To my fellow Muslims, belated Eid Mubarak! I know that's waaaay late, but, well... better late than never, right?
To my Christian brothers and sisters, belated Merry Christmas!
To my brothers and sisters who are neither Muslim nor Christian, greetings of Peace!
11 December 2007
...I love guns!
I'm not the type who wants to go to war or the type who approves shooting of people or anything, but I have always had this fascination with guns. And, I like them long and big! I love target shooting. I've never really done it in real target shooting ranges, but I've done shooting cans and what-have-yous in private areas/locations. I also enjoy target shooting games at arcades and fairs. There was even this one time my friend and I went to the try-outs for the UP Rifle and Pistol Team just so we could do some shooting. It was really fun and they couldn't believe when I told them that I've actually done some target shooting using real guns back home.
One time, my friends and I went to this area near the lake (Lanao) for some fun, and one of us had a gun with him, so we started looking for cans to shoot. There weren't any other people around so it was alright. When it was my turn, as I pulled the trigger, the bullet casing flew straight to my lower lip. It was hot, but it didn't hurt. That's something I'll never forget because I've seen some people get bad burns due to bullet casing and I was just lucky and thankful that it didn't cause so much of a cut on my lip.
I don't know, but shooting gives me the feeling of being in control. You aim and it really depends on you whether you hit your target or not. You have to be really precise and steady, but you have complete control of the gun. I love the feeling of the recoiling as I pull the trigger. It feels like a complete release of so many things I'd been keeping and carrying around. It gives me the feeling that with the discharging of the bullet, I also get to purge myself of doubts, fears, etc. Unlike other people, I actually feel so relaxed around guns. They don't scare me or anything. A lot of families in my locality love guns, but my family isn't one of those. I don't exactly know where I got this fascination with guns, but I really love them guns! :)
...I am not that strong a person.
People around me always have this notion of me being a very strong person. Sure, I guess I am strong in some ways, but I am not as strong as people think I am. I have weaknesses, doubts, thoughts and issues that people around me would probably never imagine I have. They don't know that I have been broken time and time again. They don't know that I am often scared and unsure. They don't know that I've had continuous bouts with depression over the years. They don't know that when I give that confident smile, inside, I am shaking and struggling to stay on my feet. They don't know how I feel. They don't know my struggles. They don't know my battles. They don't know my insecurities. And, I don't want them to know!
I am happy pretending to be strong. Or, am I really? Strong? Pretending?
Tomorrow (Dec. 12) is my mom's birthday! I'm buying cake and ice cream! Weeee! :)
Happy birthday to the best mom in the whole universe! Mwahugs! :)
05 December 2007
I couldn't go to work (read: had to miss my classes) for two days because my cough and colds went from bad to worse. Plus, I have fever at the moment. So, I opted to stay home and rest. There's nothing good on TV, so here I find myself answering personality quizzes as I'm still under the Blogger's Block Witch's spell. Some quizzes can actually be accurate, you know.:)
Anyway, here are results I got:
You were quite the introverted one, misunderstood and alone in your thoughts. You would stay up to three o'clock in the morning with your pen, sharing your dreams and losses with your beloved journal. Your poems were inspiring mostly to your love interests. Your words were your weapon... weapon of love, that is.
Your feelings about yourself are well-balanced. You believe in yourself enough to go after your dreams, but are able to still maintain a good work ethic. You don't take life personally, you understand that sometimes stuff happens. In order to combat failure, you prepare for the worse and hope for the best. In relationships you give your all, but are willing to abandon it if your partner proves to be dishonest.
On Astrology and Horoscopes
Answering those quizzes reminded me of Astrology and Horoscopes. I have never been a fan or a believer of these things. I've never even tried to read that Daily Horoscope section that our newspapers have. And, back when I was in High School, I used to think that whenever Madame Rosa (of the defunct Teysi ng Tahanan) read for her Horoscope segment, she'd actually make everything up in her head as she read. She really cracked me and my cousins up. Her very slow and monotonous reading didn't help give her credibility, too.
I've never been interested in such things. One of the reasons maybe because things like this are not really encouraged in Islam. But, recently, a friend of mine had me read some parts of his Horoscope book. That was, I think, the first time I ever really read something like that. It was fun and interesting. Something new. In fact, I was a little surprised because I really felt I was reading a description of my personality as I was reading about the Arian personality. Except for a few little things here and there, I could say that the description was pretty accurate.
I'll have to say that I admire people who devote their whole lives to study these things. I mean, it's no joke to be studying the positions of stars and planets in relation to dates, etc. I don't really understand much of Astrology and I definitely am not even ready to believe in it (I don't think I ever will), but, right now, I don't think there's anything wrong with people who actually believe in it. I do know some people who really believe in Horoscopes, who look for the Daily Horoscope section as soon as they get their hands on newspapers! And, I think it's fine in the same way that it is fine to actually go straight to the Sports section (like I usually do) or the Entertainment section as soon as we get our newspapers.
What about you? Do you believe in Astrology or Horoscopes? :)