22 February 2010
They say that the only thing constant in this world is change! I do agree with this. Big time! However, I'm, at the moment, wondering if all changes are needed. Though I understand that not all changes are for the good, I still can't help but wish that all changes did people good or sometimes I even wish they never had to take place. Now, don't get me wrong, I like change. Really. I'm quite resilient when it comes to changes in my life and my situation. I'm not one to dwell in and continuously wish for what's gone and past. Except that lately, there's been a great change, that has taken place, which I wish just never took place.
I'm not talking about something physical. I'm talking about something that has to do with worldview, with perception, with feelings. I'm talking mind and soul. The kind of change that actually feels like a monster that slowly devours you piece after piece until it completely consumes you one whole. The thing is, I came to notice the scary monster only after it had already started gnawing at me. I was already at the point of no return, no more going back. I had become a fully changed person before I actually noticed it.
So, now, I'm trying to live with it. I'm doing my best to be able to keep everything in check. I'm working my ass off trying to deal with this change. It's difficult. It has caused me grief, but it has become a part of who I am. This is a very important change in my life. This is a change that I have to deal with and accept. Right now, I'd like to still think that everything will be all right. After all, all's well that ends well.
15 February 2010
To many people, Valentine's Day is a day for those who are in love. The fact that it's otherwise known as Hearts' Day says a lot. It's a day for love, romantic love that is, and lovers. To some lovers, it is an excuse to be mushy and, sometimes, even corny. It's considered the most romantic day of the year. Japanese girls give chocolates to guys they like. It is their chance to make known their feelings to the guys they secretly crush on or secretly love. For the Philippine Presidential candidates, it's a special day to woo voters. Hehe:)
For me, Valentine's Day has always been Friendship Day! Back in college, my friends and I, that is Voltext and Daimos, made sure we were free on the day so we can have our V-Day group date. It was a day that we always looked forward to. We'd usually get together for lunch and spend the rest of the day chatting, laughing or just plain hanging out. It was always fun, fun, fun! When I lived in Manila, we (those of us who were in Manila) would get together like we used to. We'd spend the day together and if V-Day fell on a weekday and we had work or school, we'd postpone our group date to the weekend that followed the special day.
When I got back to MSU a little less than four years ago, Valentine's Day became an ordinary day. With many of my friends in Manila, and those who are here (including myself) being too busy, the usual V-Day group date became extremely difficult to arrange. I guess that proves how far we've all gone from our college and fresh from college selves. That may sound a little sad and negative, but it really isn't. And, besides, I know that we'll have those usual V-Day group dates again in the future.
This year, my Valentine's Day was more than the ordinary day it has been the past three years. It was made special by a late afternoon date I had with a very special group of students. The students were under my tutelage a few semesters back and we've forged a special kind of bond since then. We call our group the Hamoon Habibiis.
It has become our practice for the past two years to have an exchange of gifts as a year-ender event. But, last year, due to our schedules never meeting, we decided to postpone our gift-exchange event and just have it on Valentine's Day this year. So, the day came and, needless to say, we had a blast! We couldn't do the usual karaoke because we started late. Nevertheless, it was so much fun. We talked, laughed, ate, planned for another get-together, and we got gifts that we loved. Everyone went home happy and satisfied.
I love the fact that, for me, Valentine's Day has always meant a celebration of friendship. It continues to make me realize how friends make life so much more colorful and meaningful. Great times with great friends tops my "How to Celebrate Valentine's Day" list! And, I thank God I have such great friends to celebrate the day with. That definitely makes me one with those who are in love. I definitely am in love. I am in love with life! :)
Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! I hope you had a blast! And, as Kris Aquino would say, "Love, love, love!!!"
Let's spread the love! Oh, and Gong Xi Fa Cai to all my Chinese friends! :)
01 February 2010
I've just found out that the results for the recent Nursing Board Examinations (given in November 2009) has been released. Immediately, I googled it and checked some names. I was so happy and proud upon seeing familiar names in the list. In my experience as a teacher, it's always great to see names of your students in lists such as this. Seeing your former students successful in their fields makes you really proud and feel like you've done a pretty good job. Not that they owe you anything, but you just really feel like a proud parent. I can't imagine how happy and proud their parents are. Also, it's much greater and more wonderful if the successful ones actually are very close to you.
So, I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate our new nurses: Fatima and Khadijah Abduljalil. I know how hard this pair of sisters have worked for this. I am so proud of both of them. And, I am pretty sure that they will be successful women in their own right. Now that they've become nurses and proven that they can be such, I hope that they both devote some of their time honing their skills in writing. We don't exactly see nurse-writers everyday, do we? Hay, right now, I'm just so happy for both of them and all new nurses from MSU, especially those who, once in their lives, became my students.
On another note, I was sad that there were some names I couldn't find in the list, but, well, maybe it's just not their time yet. They probably have more things to learn and realize. I hope and pray that they don't give up. I know it can be really tough, but, as they say, "when the going gets tough, the tough get going!" And, to them I say, "keep going!"
In other good news, an article I submitted to Philippine Daily Inquirer's Youngblood column got published on January 23rd. I wasn't expecting to be published again because I have friends who have submitted articles to such column more than once, but only got to have just one of their articles published. Some of them tell me that their articles don't even get to be published in PDI's website, where some articles that don't get published on the broadsheet get published, but they will not stop submitting until they are 30! Hehe:) I truly admire such determination.
The very first time I submitted an article for Youngblood was back in December 2003. I remember how I'd totally forgotten that I actually submitted an article because, well, it didn't appear in the broadsheet nor the website in the following days or even weeks. It was after almost two months that they contacted me to confirm some things that I remembered I'd submitted an article. Needless to say, I was overwhelmed beyond belief because I'd been such a huge fan of the column ever since I was in high school. I couldn't believe they were calling me and that they considered my article worthy to be published. And then, I guess it was after another week or two, February 5, 2004 to be exact, that it finally came out. (I can't find the url!) I was so happy. It was one item checked on my list of "Things I Want to Happen Before I'm 30!"
I did promise myself that I'd try and submit an article again. I mean, who knows, I might get published again, right? But, I never really got down to it. Until this year. I was thinking that this'd be my last chance to do so because I'd be 30 in March and Youngblood is only for people who are 29 years old or younger. I thought and thought of what to write, but all I had in mind was that if I were to submit anything to Youngblood, I'd like my article to promote reading.
I wrote and wrote on my journal, but I didn't think any of my entries was actually good enough to submit. And then, I remembered a blog entry I wrote some two years back. I wanted to read it because I felt it would provide me some ideas. I searched for it in my archives and found it. As I went through it, I felt good about it and so, I decided to just improve it, add some more to it, and submit it instead of writing a completely new one. So, I went on ahead and submitted it.
When two friends of mine sent me congratulatory Facebook messages about my article being published, at first I couldn't believe it! I checked our newspaper and, indeed, it was there. Alhamdulillah. It was amazing, too, that it was only a little more than a week after I submitted the article.
I am so happy that the two articles I actually had the courage of submitting to Youngblood both made it in print. I cannot thank God enough for such luck. And, I'd really like to thank everyone who have been congratulating me for this. I just really wish that people, especially young people, who have read the article felt, even in the slightest, how great reading is, what a great activity and, at the same time, a great help it is for anyone and everyone. So, everyone, let's read! :)