The Ocean of My Being

The past few nights, I had so many things in mind that I wanted to write/blog about. Every time I’d lie down to sleep, these ideas start to creep into my mind and I’d feel so excited I couldn’t wait for morning to come. But, now that I’m sitting in front of this Net Café’s PC, I can’t seem to decide what to write about. No, no, make that I can’t think of a really good thing to write! It’s so irritating and really frustrating! Now, I completely understand what Kencho Suematsu meant when he said, “…she wrote down immediately, in order not to allow the inspiration of the moment to be lost, ” about Lady Murasaki (the author of Genji Monogatari , the world’s very first novel, which I’m reading with great enjoyment and interest right now). Hay! Thinking… Thinking… Thinking… :) Jeepney rides... Okay, what comes to mind right now is something that I see or observe daily (ever since I came to Manila), i.e. some of the people I ride with in jeepneys. It always bothers me how som...

After reading Balbonics ' and Dominattyrix 's posts on the cute avatar/icons that anyone can create at this site , I also thought of creating MY avatar/icon.  And, here is what I came up with. My friend (JanJan) and I both think this is how I look like. Okay, okay... I look like a happy cancer patient , but I think people who really know me and who've seen me will agree that I look like the icon. After all, I hardly ever go out without my veil. And, of course, you can NOT not notice how my icon self is wearing a pink shirt/sweater and a pink scarf. Oh, and the background (which is partly hidden) is the gate of the Sensoji (Asakusa Kannon Temple) in Tokyo , where I actually posed in and had my photo taken almost four years ago. :) And, who's that little cute fellow in my hands? That's Shan Cai, my aunt's cute spoiled brat of a cat! Here's another look at her. :) This one doesn't know she's a cat! Tihihihi! :)

I finally decided to change my template. At first, I had such a hard time imagining changing my template because my older template was a product of sleepless nights, sweat, and tears. Yes, tears! I started blogging with zero knowledge of html and those other things (that I still don't know a thing about). But, with trial and error combined with all the patience I could muster, I was able to make a quite decent looking blog. Of course, I was so happy and so proud of it. It was like my "baby" or something. Y'know, like when people have projects and they call them their babies. I felt that way. But last night, I went to the Net Cafe I always went to and found out that they've switched from Internet Explorer to Mozilla Firefox . I checked my blog, as usual, and found that it looked weird in Firefox . I know it looked weird in Apple Macs , too, because I once used a Mac at the UP Computer Center . I don't really know why. My tagboard isn't where i...

It’s amazing and sometimes funny how life teaches us new lessons even in the most ordinary of days. The most usual scenes of everyday life would sometimes make us learn a thing or two on how to live. Last Tuesday, I met with a friend at Greenbelt . Two scenes from that day will forever remain in my memory because they made me think and make a decision about how I want to be as a person and how I want to live. At the MRT… The Quezon Avenue MRT Station was not as swarmed as I expected it to be when I got there. As soon as I got my ticket, I joined the army of people rushing to the platform to get on the train that just came to a stop. As I positioned myself on the yellow arrow markers where the doors opened, I couldn’t help but notice an oldish (about 58 to 60-ish) lady, first because she was dressed in pink and then I couldn’t help but admire how strong she still was. I mean, she ran with the rest of the crowd, her crown of pure white hair making her stand out. And then, I noti...

For no other reason except that I think YOU definitely are THE BEST in the world, I love you with all my heart and soul (and hypothalamus!). For letting me love YOU , I feel that I am the HAPPIEST person alive. For just being there, YOU make me absolutely the LUCKIEST girl the whole world has ever seen/known. This is how much YOU mean to me. LOVE AKEN SEKA, sobra!!! Mwah! :) *************** Here's the perfect song for YOU ... When I See You Smile Sometimes, I wonder if I'd ever make it through, Through this world without having you, I just wouldn't have a clue 'Cause sometimes it seems Like this world's closing in on me And there's no way of breaking free And then I see you reach for me Sometimes I wanna give up, Wanna give in, I wanna quit the fight And then I see you, baby, And everything's alright, Everything's alright... When I see you smile, I can face the world, Oh, you know, I can do anything When I see you smile, I see a ray of light ...

Here are some pictures of things I love about home. Home, truly, is where the heart is. :) Goby, the "boy of my life"... my handsome nephew! (We call each other LoveLove.) Isn't he adorable? LoveLove... My baby, Fai, in his favorite spot... Tired... Sleepy... sleepy... ...and asleep!!! Our bigger babies, Fai Lan (Dugong) and Phoebe Buffay... The Gray Sisters... Phoebe Buffay, all pretty! My favorite tree in the whole world... Aaah, MSU!!! :)

I lost my cellular phone the other night. It took me some time to see the brighter side of this. Hmm, oh well… Let me start by talking about that day (Tuesday). It was a good day and I was really excited because I was to catch “ Happy Together ” at the UP Film Center . I mean, after all those years of waiting for a chance to see the movie and looking for a copy of it in vain, I was pretty much psyched up about the thought of finally seeing it. And, especially after my very good friend, Bok , lent me a copy of it, but every stupid PC at the dorm just wouldn’t read the damned DVD. I was just so happy when she informed me that it was going to be shown at the FC. So naturally, I was bubbling with excitement the whole day. And, after waiting for what seemed like centuries, it was finally six o’clock and I was standing in line. The movie was absolutely great. I’ve never seen anything as brave and as “gay” as that movie. What I loved about it is that even if I’m straight and all, I ...